diet day one.....opps, new food plan day one

ok...... so here I go............ as my dad used to say.. another day, another dollar :P

so i bought all my food yesterday and it felt good, powerful to be making healthy food choices. I got turkey patties, vegies, grapefruit, salad. I also bought my favorite desserts knowing this is it, and ate about 3 bites of each, that's all i wanted. had dimsum, which was lousy and well...... new day... new me.

so this am, i cooked 4 patties, three in the fridge, one for breakfast, made 2 salads with balsamic vinegar and tuna in them, 3 oz tuna, and brought the grapefruit to work. Also juiced 2 lemons and made lemonaid with artificial sweetener, ( not sure about that ) and cayenne.

I have been peeing like crazy at work. googled, lemon juice, and low and behold it is a diuretic..... thought so!!! That's ok.. my cankles are swollen, this will help.

I ate my patty. well half, it was undercooked.... yuck and have not eaten anything else yet though I am suppose to eat every 2 to 3 hours. Guess I will break into the grapefruit since I was suppose to eat this for breakfast.

so here is what i am suppose to eat for my body shape......endomorph

breakfast
2 oz turkey, 1/2 grapefruit
snack
3 oz tuna, 1 cup salad
lunch
2 oz fish, 1/2 yam
snack
3 oz tuna, 1 cup salad
dinner
3 oz fish, 1 cup veggies
snack
2 oz chicken, 1 cup salad

i drizzled balsamic vinegar over my salad, tastes good

since i do not like to eat too much meat, i can substitute tofu for it. So tonight the bf is coming over and i am making him thai tofu over brown rice. I won't eat the rice, he can. I'll eat the tofu and vegies.

i know i can do this. I HAVE to. My health is suffering from being fat. I have high blood pressure, and edema. Could be worse. I saw on the discovery channel lastnight really obese people and their health problems. I don't want to be like that. I also learned that sitting at a desk all day can make for fluid retention in your legs. I am going to walk at lunch. Usually I go out and eat, but since I am on this food plan and have to make my lunch, well... i'll walk. I wonder if the fish will smell up the doctors office i work in? Well.... i'll find out today!

ok............ why am i doing this??????

embarrassed by the recent photos
i deserve to be slim
my health
want to look good for vegas baby june 23
for my bf.. he is slim and a hottie
my sister died at 55, i don't want to
to look good when i met friends i haven't seen in awhile.. i am soo embarrassed of me right now
to wear cute clothes
to not sweat as much
to be able to wear sleevless shirts
to not hide
to wear a bathing suit and feel ok... alright. that's a stretch!!!
to fit me, the inside me that is not the outside me that others see.
to look cute again

off to eat my fruit................